The Place of Silence

I recently was awakened to an entanglement that the enemy has been, is devising and constructing against me. Being the sheep that I am, I was clueless until my loving Shepherd finally opened my eyes by saying, “Daughter, do you see what it going on here?” After the initial shock I was able to settle down and hear more of what He had to say. The more He revealed to me about the enemy’s plan, the who, what, when, where, why and how of the matter, I found myself stunned to silence.

My mind was racing. My heart was hurting. However, my spirit was soaring! I LOVE the Lord! You see after I got over the question of “how could I have been so blind and dumb and trusting?”, and the “What in the world am I going to do?” The emotion that remained and was the most prevalent was Joy! I thought, “WOW GOD! You are amazing. What a privilege it is to serve a God that can reveal to me at His whim the plans of the enemy concerning me.” The revelation didn’t come as a result of fasting or pressing in for it. It simply came from the overflow of His love for me and the intimate relationship we share. The joy of the Lord truly is my strength.

As the Lord walked me through this revelation I couldn’t help but think of Jesus. My main concern was how am I supposed to act? How am I supposed to continue to face my enemies? God reminded me how Jesus dealt with His accusers. In this life we will deal with accusers in the spiritual realm and then there are times we will face accusers in the natural; ones that we have to come face to face with regularly. I tend to be the kind of person that if I’m not particularly fond of you I have no problem being polite and saying hello but I’m really not going to go through the motions of hugging you, hanging out with you and/or having lengthy conversations with you. I find it to be very fake and two-faced. But then God reminded me how Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss and how Jesus stood before Pilate in a place of silence when there was so much He could have said. Heck! There was so much that should have been said but God had a better more effective plan. Can you imagine your enemy hugging your neck every time they see you? The thought makes me ill but what God keeps telling me is to simply be silent and receive it. Ugh! Not gonna lie, that one is tough for me, lol.

A few months ago the Lord started teaching me to not defend myself. He was adamant about it and I couldn’t figure out why He was harping on it so much. He was killing that part of my flesh that felt it was entitled, had the right, to defend myself or to even confront my accusers. I realize now that He was preparing me for this moment in which I am walking in. Do I really believe He is my defender? Do I really believe He will avenge me? Do I really believe that ultimately He will prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies? This is my moment to walk out the Word. Silence speaks so much louder than ranting and raving. Silence says, “I am controlled by the Spirit not my flesh.” Silence says, “I do not fight against flesh and blood and will do my warfare in the spiritual realm.” Silence says, “I am victorious, more than a conqueror, and when my Father deems the moment appropriate, He will speak up for me.”

The place of silence. I am learning there is peace in the place of silence and even joy! I never would have imagined. If God is for me, who can be against me? I am learning to love this place of silence. Silence before my accusers. Silence before the Lord. The less I talk the more He reveals. Wow, what an amazing trade off…

"Cast your burden on the LORD, and He will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved." Psalm 55:22 AMEN AND AMEN!!!